A year had come to an end, 365 days, 52 weeks. Did u utilize it wisely?

2010 was a year of many eventful happenings.

The global economy recovered with vigor however many countries are still struggling through battle.

Tourist numbers in singapore was back to it's optimum festive figures however disaster struck many destinations. Boats capsized, snow storms raged, coaches overturned, planes crashed, volcanoes erupted, lands flooded, food shortages.

Peace was disrupted not only by natural disasters but also political instability. China and the US, N and S Korea, terror threats, wiki leaks, inflation.

So many lives lost. It was one of the worst year to date.

Sufferings, global warming, should we start to treasure our sheltered lives more?

2010 to me was just like others, but I believe I spent my time more wisely than before. I matured, I grew. I had a few firsts and did a lot usuals better.

Start of 2010 marked my last 3 months in ngeeann and spoon-fed education. It was the first time in 3 years I strived hard for projects and exams. Hard work did not fail me, allowing me to attain the highest GPA I ever did.

Though I didn't really work that hard considering the huge amount of tine spent preparing for my first independent overseas trip to Taiwan with karmen and wanqing. I really didn't know how I managed to collect so much data and planned with ease.

Upon returning, I started work at hwa chong. Unlike previous years, I was given a relief position, not admin. Met many great colleagues which spurred me to work harder now to compensate for wasting my youth in the past. It drove my passion for teaching and thou rejected by MOE, I took up a few tuition cases.

Life went on even without getting into a local university. Unwilling to head overseas for an education, I applied in a UoB degree which I'm currently taking. I aquatinted with many nice people, saw myself struggling with studies for the first time, bought textbooks for once and put best efforts in studying. I learnt how to cherish this chance better than before.

Went on more trips to batam and hong kong subsequently, which made me dread the local life even more.

Life's short. Let the people around you know how much you love them.
I want to make sure every second is well spent. I havent built a passion for anything. Not an activity, neither a job. The future seems so vague.

Contemplating to undertake the CFA programme during the 5 months break.

As we grow, our preferences and characteristics become rather overwhelming. We see things in a different light, with stronger motives.

If the future is one of those dream come true, I wish it would be situated a cozy little cottage situated in a green pasture surrounded with flowers and trees of many kind. The scent of morning dew would fill the place with the sounds of nature's melody echoing round the pasture. Too bad fairytales don't come true.

School is still a struggle, relationship is like being out on harsh seas, global warming's a bitch, patience is a challenge and future muffled by a blanket of mist. A year had passed, I hope I've grown. Leave the destress behind, pickup the experiences and lovely memories. Wake up to the new year and treasure the pleasures that the world have to offer.

Recycle more, smile more, love life. PEACE
:)

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Stop taking things for granted. There are so many people out there starving, living in slumps, lacking basic necessity, facing natural disasters.

No I'm not forcing you in their shoes but can you at least treasure what you have and save some water?

OMY to meet myLove and EC! :D

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My brain had been stagnant recently, slacking off for both the modules which doesn't really interest me. Where soon I'll face the music of not paying the right attention in class.

I haven't been thinking deep but when I was bathing just now I thought: are we really who we wanna be? Or are we even putting effort into perusing the life we want?

Hearing that you'll think of big dreams, great ambitions, the perfect person who life his/het lives to the fullest.

I really look upon people who have aims and dreams, working their way up the life ladder well planned. And of course putting efforts and the right attitude in doing it. I guess I'm just not wired that way. Up bringing and attitude really changes ones life. I don't mean I have a bad upbringing, but not the ideal and certainty my attitude isn't commendable (at all).

But life still goes on after all this thinking, I'm still not going to work as hard as these people but try to at least work harder. Sometimes I really hate myself for not trying, not putting the efforts and wasting precious time away.

But in reality these perfect souls are rare, but they do exist so much that you wished to turn back time and be like them.

In this little country, big dreams doesn't sound realistic without the resources and limitations. Oh my dream is to become a millionaire! A doctor! A starr! I guess that's just a ambition. Dreams are only attainable in dream land.

Nobody really asked me what my ambition was. Once I wanted to join the army, then years later I wrote 12 letters to mediacorp (tcs then) for some kids ambition job and one of my letters got selected. Oh yes I was on tv before! Not worth mentioning though. I guess I don't really have a ambition. A teacher? NIE rejected me, I'm just not up for all the challenges.

Call me 阿宅. I don't really like crowds. All I wanna do is to have this little sheep farm, just sheeps, nothing else, okay just a horse and a loyal dog. A little cottage house and a mini buggy. So in the 21st century, my ambition is a farmer /:

Yea so where do my $$ come from?? Err when my sheep grow enough for me to make cheese and when I learn how to make cheese? What about kids n marriage? Erms I dunno, too early to decide.

So my ambition is to become a farmer, to live in this cooling small town, to jog in the morning( wonder if mylove wanna join me), living a slow paced life.

Reality strikes. In Singapore? I'm just wasting my brain cells, wasted my brain cells.

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Shd I b angry or shd I b sad?

I don't know, hearing myself cry scares me. I don't know what to do now, how to get u back, waiting for u at the void deck makes me think of the past I never wanted to remember, the pain and the hopeless tries.

I don't have the confidence of getting back with u at all, never thought that I have to go thru this again, never thought that my love for u is so strong, never thought that I would cry so hysterically.

Maybe it's time to let go? It's too early to say I guess. I am always the one to say: if u never try u would never know. And suddenly what chan chan said flash across my mind: sometimes u just know.

We had done many first tgt, haven't done many tgt either, I still wanna fly a kite with u, travel t Taiwan with u, drive u around after I have go my license, have lunch w u in np... I still wanna do those with u, do u?

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Shd I b angry or shd I b sad?

I don't know, hearing myself cry scares me. I don't know what to do now, how to get u back, waiting for u at the void deck makes me think of the past I never wanted to remember, the pain and the hopeless tries.

I don't have the confidence of getting back with u at all, never thought that I have to go thru this again, never thought that my love for u is so strong, never thought that I would cry so hysterically.

Maybe it's time to let go? It's too early to say I guess. I am always the one to say: if u never try u would never know. And suddenly what chan chan said flash across my mind: sometimes u just know.

We had done many first tgt, haven't done many tgt either, I still wanna fly a kite with u, travel t Taiwan with u, drive u around after I have go my license, have lunch w u in np... I still wanna do those with u, do u?

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Haven't been updating for sometime alr, everything seems normal, the usual meetups, blablabla..

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Driving is scary, unpredictable /: I wished there was a certaint angle for every bend.

The instructor said: this is the acceleator pedal, step it /:

Huh so fast!

Him: Yeas step more ! Yea more /:

Err sure not

Him: yeas n u turn in front!

O.o first lesson.. Cold sweat for the next hour~.~

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Fb n love is leaving in a month, but have yet t settle accomodation, pro

My transport cost is rising like crazy, like 5 a day?! I tot I just topped up 30 a few days ago, Jason's totally right ! Those who top up less thn 50 is just being dumb, unless the machine is just under ur hus! Argument proven!

Dumpling making was a failure n the cost ( excluding gas n effort) > the price of buying them from stores!

Conslusion, cooking is waste of time, Money, effort n not environmentally friendly, no wonder mom never cooks!

Working at census= many wasted trips, time n contributing t annual profits of smrt bus services n reducing gas emissions per passanger km, CRAP! Sg bus services sucks

Driving is scary, headache had not subsidized , shd have just went for class 3A.

Batam trip posponed :(

Yet to know appeal results / uob results.

I guess my bears would starve later, cos mommybear won't wake up on time later.

Malaysia on sat, AGAIN :D

That's all folks

And I wonder if my girls read my lj, ...
Tang, ms, xn, jiaying, GF, FB, myLOVe, sis.. Who else...

WHEN R U DATING ME OUT??!!

Actually, I'm v busy too /:

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Fb n love is leaving in a month, but have yet t settle accomodation, pro

My transport cost is rising like crazy, like 5 a day?! I tot I just topped up 30 a few days ago, Jason's totally right ! Those who top up less thn 50 is just being dumb, unless the machine is just under ur hus! Argument proven!

Dumpling making was a failure n the cost ( excluding gas n effort) > the price of buying them from stores!

Conslusion, cooking is waste of time, Money, effort n not environmentally friendly, no wonder mom never cooks!

Working at census= many wasted trips, time n contributing t annual profits of smrt bus services n reducing gas emissions per passanger km, CRAP! Sg bus services sucks

Driving is scary, headache had not subsidized , shd have just went for class 3A.

Batam trip posponed :(

Yet to know appeal results / uob results.

I guess my bears would starve later, cos mommybear won't wake up on time later.

Malaysia on sat, AGAIN :D

That's all folks

And I wonder if my girls read my lj, ...
Tang, ms, xn, jiaying, GF, FB, myLOVe, sis.. Who else...

WHEN R U DATING ME OUT??!!

Actually, I'm v busy too /:

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Working again reminds me of my childhood days as well as stupid school stuff. I should have worked harder on the past /:

It's the June holidays again and I'm jobless, unlike shuan, the fact is I don't even see him around the pool! Yet he earns more than me! I'm under paid!

So now i'm on the bus t ulu marseling cc t collect my " rice bowl" for the month, census survey stuff !

And after that my uni interview /: I'm so not prepared/:

Boss helped me with it a bit but I have still yet not thought of what t say ..

And recently, or rather just now, I saw the crazy new fare structure for buses! Money suckers!! I need concessions!

I love school :D

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